Seeking Comfort

It’s been suggested to me that I returned to the Catholic Church, at least in part because it was familiar and comfortable. It was suggested also that I returned because my mother had died. I would not argue either point.

It was very comfortable going back to the Church. It filled the “empty space” that was longing to be filled. Hearing the Scriptures read, saying the Scriptures in the Mass and most of all returning to the Eucharist was very familiar. But I would not have done it if I thought it was wrong.

It is comfortable to lay in bed all day. It is a very enticing proposition in fact. But I can’t do it because it is wrong. My children would not be fed and there would be no clothes to wear and nothing would be accomplished if I chose the wrong path. So too if I had chosen to not return “home.”

My children would not be getting fed with the Word of God. My spiritual house would continue in the disarray that had accumulated. We would not be involved in community events and service projects. All of this has been happening since we chose to start attending Church.

The point about my mother dying is somewhat true. But not what most people who don’t know us well would think. She never wanted me to go back to my Catholic roots. There were many reasons and it would have caused a lot of strife. But I was on my way to returning when she died. And the fact that she wasn’t getting hurt by my re-joining Catholicism helped a lot. It was also very comforting to return to my beliefs during a time of great sorrow for me.

Sometimes it is good to have a comfortable place to be. We should never be comfortable to the point of lazy in our relationship with the LORD. And while it is perfectly acceptable to be filled with awe, wonder, amazement , fear and trembling, we should feel the Father’s arms as we enter into our spiritual homes.

Are you comfortable in the presence of the Father? I pray for that to be so.

Always in Him.

~ by throughadarkglass on November 2, 2007.